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Monday, January 7, 2013
I am trying.
I had great plans for the new year...you know, now that we're all of 7 days into it and I've done nothing on my list of resolutions. I wanted to start this year off with a new direction, to get up earlier and enjoy some quiet me-time before the rest of the world wakes up. That always sounds so nice to me, but I struggle with the actual getting up part. I want to write more, oh, to write more. But I feel more exhausted than ever, and I feel like I'm having to cheer-lead myself through the day with a set of soggy pom-poms (although I noticed this evening that finally, finally the sun seemed to be out a little bit longer before sinking into the earth in a blaze of pink and orange).
What is it about winter that leaves me feeling like I'm neglecting me? And in turn, I feel like I'm neglecting everyone around me (no need to call social services, Finn is fine; I feed him three times a day and he's well on his way to being potty-trained, in fact. Abby's very self-involved these days, so since there haven't been any major or minor melt-downs recently, I'm going to assume she's good). I just want to wear warm mittens and stay under my covers and read very long, very involved novels while drinking tea and eating tons of cookies. The mittens seem counter-productive to staying under the covers and turning pages in a book, but they're cozy, so I'll go with it.
Anyway, all this to say that I will try to be better at visiting this little blog of mine. And doing some writing while I'm here.
Oh, I am in the same boat as you. I think I'm having hard time because it's January and it is dark and it is cold and gray.
ReplyDeleteI used to want to get up early and have some quiet time but I have decided that getting up when the kids get up is good enough. I grab a minute or two here and there to breath deeply and call it good. :)
It's the lack of sunshine, I swear it is. When I lived in the sunny southwest, I had so much more energy. Here in the land of clouds, it doesn't seem worth getting up when it's just another cloudy, with or without rain, day.
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